Spirit and Truth

Today I watched a YouTube video commentary about a "good girl" celebrity hooking up with a "bad boy" celebrity.  The host was basically dealing with all the negative feedback people were giving the "good girl" for hooking up with the "bad boy". The host commented on how people only know the image portrayed by celebrities and that maybe they each discovered the "real" person in each other and that's why they are together.  Not for publicity-positive or negative- but because they want to be together.

When it comes down to living life on purpose, you must choose if you want to walk in the "real" of being you in every area of life or just the perception that you are "real" in order to be accepted by others.  I've chosen to be as real and true to myself in my everyday life and my interactions with others.  That doesn't mean that I'm always understood but I'm open to communicate so that a win-win situation could arise to improve the quality of the relationship.

In today's video, I discovered the "real" person behind the facade of the person I was beginning to think of as a friend. When faced with a perception that seemed totally against what this person believed I was saying, I was attacked and totally written off as evil when in fact, just taking the time to understand the meaning of mere words could have saved a budding friendship.  Even during times like these I'm determined to Enjoy the Journey!

It's not Enough

Often times in life there comes a point when you have to be honest with yourself about who you are, what you have and what you want.  I was at just such a place when I told God "it's not enough!"  That there was so much more for me to experience than what I currently was experiencing. I wanted MORE!

I wanted everything He'd promised me in His word.  I had come to a place in my life where I was honest with myself as well as God, that I wanted more in my life. All that He has available for me, I want to experience in my life. And in order to experience more, I had to take God at His word; not my circumstances, limitations, doubts or fears.

Where are you in your level of expectations? Are you experiencing more than enough in your life? Or are you just settling for whatever comes your way; you'll be happy with that? I want to inspire and encourage you to believe for more: not just for yourself, but so you may be a blessing to others as well. There is much more available to you than what you are experiencing right now: just BELIEVE!

Lead or Be Led

Looking back over my life, I've come to realize that in many ways, I am a Leader. Even though sometimes I want to blend into the background, that's not always possible in certain situations. At other times, the decision must be made of how willing I am to being led even though I am a leader.

Being a leader is more than barking out orders at people and expecting complete obedience on their part. Regardless to whether or not you lead the project or are just a part of the team, being the leader means you have to know when to operate from that leadership position or take on the responsibility as a teammate. To keep the ultimate goal of being successful in your endeavors regardless of your position or title.
                           
This months video is about recognizing the need for good leadership and recognizing good leadership abilities in others.  The position I found myself in when someone I led ultimately wanted to be the leader and my reaction.  I hope you will evaluate your leadership style and understand the importance of working effectively and efficiently regardless to whether or not you lead or are being led.

Fear Not!

I am at a place in my life where I can now embrace love, a man and a relationship. I can see how it's supposed to work, feel and be. For so many years I've fancied myself in love but I didn't truly have it on the inside. What I did have was surface feelings magnified to appear deep but was truly shallow.

I am grateful to God that He prepares the way before me. He informed me to prepare for marriage and although I've said it way too many times in the past, this time I know that I am ready to love and be loved. There will be no need to look for hidden agendas and motives because God brought us together and there's work that needs to be done. We are actually on the same team and are in it to win it. There's a whole world (our world) that need us to win so that we can be examples for them.

Today's video is one that I hope encourages and inspires you to let go of what is keeping you from going forward. I declare and decree that my marriage will be an inspiration and example for many generations to come. One that brings glory and honor to God because He is pleased with our covenant and stewardship.  

I did this ... Video

Back in August 2015, God revealed to me that I was not prepared for my marriage. I blogged about it (check out my blog titled I Did this to Myself 9/26/2015) as the revelation unfolded in my life. Today's video is the companion to that blog.

This is the very first video I created, so be gentle with me in your criticism. I really thought this video would be for my viewing only as a reminder of what God said and my response to His word. Nevertheless, if I can help someone else see where they are missing the mark, I'll gladly share my journey with them.

To briefly summarize the video, it contains the Rhema word from God. My process of making the necessary changes needed to correct and improve on what was revealed to me. And the catalyst for when things started to unravel and I got off course and maybe in my heart gave up on receiving what I desired. 

 
                             

Hi, it's me Tracy!

Happy New Year!  I pray you have been Enjoying 2016 so far: that things are good and that all is well in your life.  As for me, I think it's time I come out of the shadows and walk boldly in the light of the truth - I am fearfully and wonderfully made!  That being said, I'm walking this year out (with fear and trembling at times) being true to my authentic self.  Towards the middle and  end of last year, I basically found myself on YouTube admiring the vloggers and their transparency with the world.

I found several couples who have inspired me and helped to reawaken my desire for a godly husband. Those couples are: Sarah and Touré Roberts, Heather and Cornelius Lindsey, Sheretta and Brandon Taylor and Adanna and David Steinacker. Each couple in their own right has represented a different aspect of a godly and healthy relationship that has so inspired and encouraged me. I hope you take the time to check them out too; I know they will be a blessing.

Happy 2016!

As I stated earlier, their videos encouraged me so much that I downloaded iMovie and I created a few videos of my own. The video post today is my grand entrance into the cyber world.  Meaning, it's truly Me you will see. Not a caricature (as my blog photo) or a scenic view from an island I've visited (like my email photo).  It's really me! - that's the fear and trembling part I talked of earlier.  It's basically me introducing myself to you and my way of saying "Thanks" for taking the time to read my blogs.

               Enjoy the Journey!

 




                                   
     
   

         

          

I'm In Love!

Many, many years ago, I wrote a poem titled "I'm in Love". It was a poem about the love I had in my heart toward a God who would give His only Son as a sacrifice for my sins so that I could be made whole. I wanted to post that poem as my blog post for this month, however, it's stored on the hard drive of a computer that I haven't used in many years.  And the hard copy version seems to be "lost" in the never-ending supply of pages I've written over the years.  Believe me, I've searched for it and I've come to the conclusion that the Love I wrote about in that poem has grown so much so that a new poem is definitely in order for this blog post.

I spoke of a Love that was precious and new
It was so overwhelming that I didn't know what to do
When I'd told my family and friends of this Love I'd found
They took one look at the words and said I was out of my mind
Of a man surely it was that I spoke
To say that I loved God like that was really a joke
To write words like that with paper and pen
I could only be talking about mere mortal men
So I stored this poem on a computer and the back of my mind
Never realizing when I needed it, it would be hard to find
Even though I can't find what I wrote way back then
This Love in my heart is sure, steadfast and as close as my pen
So I sit here and write to the Lover of my heart
So much has changed since You gave me a brand new start
I can no longer hide the Love You freely give to me
Each time I think of this Love it makes me so happy
Happy to know that even when others doubt
I can look to you for answers and a way out
Out of bondage, shame, guilt and fear
Always knowing Your Love is so near
I'm happy, complete and I'm even whole
I now know that this was Your ultimate goal
That I walk worthy and righteous from now til the end
Cause Your Love for me has brought us closer than friends
With each new day and a Love so true
I just want to say
Lord, I'm In Love with You!