I went to see the play the Color Purple with a group of ladies who are some awesome women in their fields. Also saw a few older women that we knew from church. After the play we were all taking group pictures and pictures with the cast when the spirit of intimidation tried to overtake me. Telling me that I was a fraud and if these women knew my money "issues" they would be ashamed to be seen with me. I rebuked that thought and in my car on the way home, I rejoiced!
Why? If God brought me in the room, He has prepared me for what's in the room. I’m on my own personal Journey to Debt Freedom and God put me right in the midst of women who can not only motivate but inspire me on this Journey. These ladies that I spent the afternoon with are women who look like me but have what those who don’t look like me have. They have titles, influence and money. On top of that they are loving, kind and generous.
I’m not gonna lie and say I wasn’t excited about being surrounded by so many influential women of color (wait til I tell my regular friends who I hung out with). But I had to get angry when that spirit tried to make me cower in a corner because I dared to dream that one day I would be just as and even more influential and wealthy as them. These women were the picture of what my future can and should look like. They were my inspiration to take God at His Word that I can have, be and do anything that I set my mind to do.
This situation made me look at the way I valued myself. Was my value system based on presenting myself as a person who’s lifestyle mirrored that of others; whether I had plenty of money in the bank or even because people knew me. I am at a place now where I see myself as healthy and whole and it doesn’t matter how much money I do or do not have at present. I was surrounded by women of color who wanted to spend time with each other regardless of what the other person did or did not have. I count that as a Win!
