It’s my last day being these many years old because on tomorrow I start the Journey of adding one more year to the many I’ve already experienced. Only thing is that this time I’m really looking forward to growing. I’ve grown to the point where the things that have bothered me in the past had they not taken place for my birthday, were not even a priority in my life this time.
Not because I didn’t expect to receive anything for my birthday. But because I expected to receive what others purposed in their hearts to do for me. I only wanted what they wanted to freely give to me. Not to feel obligated because they knew me or knew of me and wanted to appear as if we were friends - or even family. But to truly Enjoy making my day for my birthday.
Which leads me to a point I’d like to make. The place in my life I am now is okay with others not wanting to be a part of my life. As long as I know my relationship with God is 💯, then those who remain after the others have “left” the friendship, all I ask of you is to not downplay the role you chose to keep in my life. Giving me gifts on the side or through someone else sends the message to me that you may want to support me but don’t want those who left to know.
Just because something is done for me doesn’t mean that it was done in the right way to be received as a gift by me. I realize everyone may not be at this place yet in their own lives so that’s why I extend Grace and allow them to express themselves to me on whatever level they are on. However, I will no longer accept the crumbs and leftovers that someone throws at me and try to call it a friendship. Real friendship for me this time was born by the surprise visit made after the storm had passed our area but this friend didn’t let the weather stop them from being a blessing to me no matter what was going on around us.
