POE -Shauntell (continued)

It all started the summer of 2002. I was getting ready to start the 10th grade so I got all my needed vaccine shots to start school. I also got the flu shot and that started all my problems in health. At this point I started school and was doing good until my right arm went completely numb. No feeling at all. I'm thinking what's wrong. I went to the doctor and was told to rub my arm multiple times during the day and it was from the flu shot. A couple of weeks later my arm still numb and my left arm become numb as well. A few weeks later I lost my eyesight at school in both eyes. My eyesight was blurred, but that was my first year wearing contacts so I didn't think to much of it. I went to the optometrist and she did an examine on my eyes. She said I believe you have Multiple Sclerosis and referred me to a doctor. 

At this time it is now 2003 and my teachers noticed my grades slipping and me making simple mistakes. I go see the neurologist my optometrist refereed me to and she says she thinks I have Multiple Sclerosis and referred me to a neurologist that specialize in Multiple Sclerosis. I see the doctor and she ran a lot of test to see what was happening. Long story short in May of 2003 I was diagnosed with Remitting Relapse Multiple Sclerosis. Me being 15 years of age, I didn't know what it was. I really thought it was like the flu until it happened again. My doctor puts me on a medication which happens to be a shot I had to give myself everyday. I didn't take it like I was suppose to and the  MS kept getting worse. 

#PATHSOFENCOURAGEMENT #POE

I blamed God and was so angry that he put this on me. I tried to kill myself by walking in the middle of a busy street. One lady stopped her car and she asked me what was I doing. She told me that it's not my time to go. She also stated that I should take my problems to God and he's never to busy. I struggled for years with trying to get a relationship with God. One day in September 2014 another MS episode happens but this time the medicine or physical therapy didn't work. I went to God and prayed over and over again. Long story short I've ask God for forgiveness and I realized it wasn't him. It was me. Now my relationship with God is in a better place. He's my everything and best friend. I include him in my daily life. With all that being said God was there for me all along and he never left my side; although I did. All you have to do is receive him. John 6:35, “Jesus said to them, ‘I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. Which simply means to receive him as what he is — not what you think he is or what somebody told you he is or what you would like him to be. 

Contributing Guest Writer: Shauntell Walker